From "situationships" to "nothingships" to just plain old "dumbships", I've found myself in all of them and it got to the point in which I questioned if love even exists and if it does is it even for me. Maybe it's just not meant for me to have someone special in my life. Because of that thinking, I found myself callused and not really caring. I became numb based on past experiences and let that warmth and belief in who I was slowly "die" with every heartbreak. It was if a part of me left with each person I allowed into my space when they didn't deserve a seat at the table.
Proverbs 4:23 says that "Above all else, guard your heart, for everything you do flows from it." Often times we get into situations with people whose "heart conditions" don't match our own. Meaning the status (emotionally and spiritually) of their heart does not match the status of yours. Example, I I once talked to someone who told me that the current condition of his heart it black, yup..black. Knowing that how in the world could I expect someone who is dealing with that much emotional pain to handle my heart if I put it in his hand? I'm learning through God that people are the exact physical representations of the emotional and spiritual state of their heart.