Listen, I know that it feels like no one will understand because we often feel that we are the only people who think like this. Guess what, you're not. The minute my best friend admitted to why she was really hesitant, I hit her with the "Girl..I feel like that sometimes as well". Never keep your fears inside so that they can fester and eat at you
In my thirty-five years on this earth I've learned a lot about myself in regards to relationships. I've learned that I tend to enter into relationships heart first and mental second, I give people the benefit of the doubt way too much, I say how I feel even when someone hasn't quite met that "level" to appreciate it (if I miss someone I tell them, want to see them I ask, mad I'll let you know) and I've learned that when your willing to put your heart out there, you have to be willing to take the joy and the pain.